I'm not quite sure what I've been doing these past few days.
I mean, I know what I've filled my days with, but I'm not quite sure what I've been doing.
Or rather why I've been doing what I've been doing.
I've been putting off packing up until now; and my flight is in less than 12 hours.
Two and a half months away.
I miss it already.
"But you didn't complain about it"
"Because I know you'll always find excuses not to make my life easier"
"But you're not here to make life easier. You're here to discover the meaning of life"
*frowns*
"You're here to discover yourself"
Everyone believes that the main aim in life is to follow a plan. They never ask if that plan is theirs or if it was created by another person. They accumulate experiences, memories, things, other people's ideas, and it is more than they can possibly cope with.
And that is why they forget their dreams.
- The Zahir - Paulo Coelho -
ps: Get off the beaten path, someone said to me.
ps2: Alhamdulillah. Unofficially a 5th year med-student. (^_^)v
It's already half way through the year *fiuhh* and there's only been 4 posts. *krik...krik*
Oh well.
Juggling while standing on a circus ball is no easy feat.
And in between, well, you just might get lost. Somewhere.
Fall, for that is what makes a life (and worth laughing at in 10 years time).
But don't stay there. Move on.
Moving on...
Prioritise...
and sacrifice.
ps: Final is really just around the corner, waiting to ambush. Let's just do our best, and keep praying (^^)v
Sometimes I wonder...
I think...
And more thinking...
And I came to the conclusion (as for now, probably)
Attitude matters.
And our attitude reflects more of our alter egos, than of our principles (or upbringing for that matter).
Don't you think?
And our alter egos, well.
Probably just reflect who we really are.
Maybe not. I don't know.
I've just come to realized; my favourite word in any of the Malaysian language is...
"laah".
I mean, it's so Malaysian and so universal, who doesn't use it?
We need to be the change we want to see happen.
ps: Nasi lemak rendang kerang is definitely Malaysian!
Akhirnya, sedikit break daripada hectic-life yang menuntut diri ini bertapa menghadap buku sepanjang masa. Bolehlah mula catch up on things-kinda-neglected before. Huhu
Harus semuanya disebabkan ketidak-upayaan diri untuk mengurus masa dengan baik. Astaghfirullah.
On the topic of time management, selama ini selalu orang berpesan pada saya; get your priorities right. Prioritise.
Dan banyak kali juga kandas dalam percubaan.
Saya tak tahu di mana silapnya.
Adakah saya tidak tahu apa priority saya?
Atau saya memang tak reti nak prioritise?
Hah!
On another topic, kadang-kadang kita rasa kita dah habis being pushed to the limit.
Ahh, tak mampu lagi! Tolong ingatkan aku....Err. Ehem.
Kadang saya rasa macam dahh cukup! Dah sampai edge of Cliff of Moher dah ni. Cukuplah. Tolonglah.
Tapi semua asakan terus bertalu-talu menolak.
Bukan sekadar carpet bombing, drones turut dihantar sekali dengan missile.
Tunggu masa nak jatuh je daripada Cliff.
Tutup mata, pasrah je. Tapi jatuh yang ditunggu tu tak juga kunjung tiba.
Eh, pelik.
Semalam kami hadiri sebuah talk yang pada saya amaaat serta sangaaatttlah bermakna, dan harapnya akan membawa pada amal.
Talk khas untuk kami, inshaAllah para doctor-to-be.
Dan saya rasa terjawablah persoalan-persoalan saya yang kusut menyerabuti neuron otak saya. Ohoi.
Kata Dr, kita kena prioritise.
Err. Prioritise lagi.
Tapi ada tambahan nya. Prioritise... and sacrifice.
Eh?
Bermakna, prioritise apa yang penting, dan sacrifice apa yang tidak penting.
Oh?
... (mata terkebil-kebil)
... (mata terkebil-kebil)
... (mata terkebil-kebil)
Patutlah!
Pada masa lapang pula, saya gunakan masa untuk bersembang-sembang sedikit bersama Dr, dan juga isteri beliau yang turut menemani beliau ke sini (ladies power! wuhuu!)
Pesan mereka, you must be willing to go extra miles.
There is always a way out.
Kalau kita sungguh-sungguh ikhlas doa pada Tuhan, yakin dengan benar-benar yakin yang Allah akan bantu kita, inshaAllah help WILL arrive.
Tak kiralah setakat mana kita rasa kita tak mampu, kita masih mampu sebenarnya.
Kita di sini, hidup kita bukan hanya untuk diri kita. Berilah erti pada hidup dengan memberi.
All the emotions, hormones flowing through, salurkanlah.
Ke mana?
Devotion to God, and charity.
Shift your paradigm. And inspire others. There's only so much you can do as long as you're willing to.
Whatever happens, never let people touch you on the inside.
ps: Saya rasa saya baru faham. Mungkin. Atau mungkin salah. Atau mungkin saya salah faham. Entahlah. Islam & da'wah is not about dictating someone's life or letting someone dictate your life. Sure Islam has law and lifestyle. But you just have to be creative.
ps2: Moga Allah terima amal saya, anda, kita dan mereka. Doa, dan teruslah berdoa.
ps3: Seriously, it's like the last day of March, but the snow outside, it's like the beginning of January. Welcome back Winter. Stay as long as you wish. You're just following God's order. Jangan berhenti hanya kerana manusia bising-bising. Biasalah mulut manusia. Don't let people touch you on the inside, and don't let people's hope dictate your life. Wuhuu! Tahniah encik Snow. (^_^)v
